the-insecurity-that's-inside
and now i look kinda like an emo hypster with a very pretty smile.
I kinda love it.
Now I just need to get it cut with some layers, and have the blue highlights put in and Ill be set!
OH! and im getting my nose double pierced soon!
SO EXCITED!
Post a picture? And you would look so cute with the layers and the blue :p but im not sure about the double nose piercing…
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quit breaking my heart…
You are a fantastic guy. You’ve been through so much, but you haven’t let it beat you. You are strong and good and pure, no matter what anyone has done or told you. You are genuine, and good, and maybe right now just isn’t the time for you to be in love. Maybe you haven’t…
Thank you Karissa. It is true I haven’t let it beat me, but it doesn’t mean I survived un-scathed. I try my best to be strong, and usually I suceed but even I have my moments where my insecurities weight heavily upon my heart and my shoulders. I always mean what I say unless I am pushing someone away to protect myself. Maybe you are right, maybe right now isn’t the time to be in love, but I am a patient person. I will wait for the girl that I want more than I have ever wanted another girl, for as long as it takes for her to be ready to be in love again. Promise you won’t forget about me? You are seriously like the only person I would hate to lose… At times I am happy and at others it is like I lose interest in alot of things. I just need someone to talk to about anything I dont care what about. I am not trying to break your heart I promise :/. Will you let me help you through your issues and emotions, if I promise not to judge you? It is impossible for me to forget about you. Period. I’m not sure if my life has any meaning at this point though.. no matter what I do or how nice I am to people, they always leave. My trust is always betrayed, yet I keep giving it out. I think I might be as broken as you, just in different ways, I just accept my issues and try fixing them.
I promise I will never, ever, EVER, forget you. I just… I will be here for you, if you ever need to vent. I mean it. If you feel low or whatever, just text it to me. Most of the time you say “Hi.” Or whatever and I dont think you seriously need to talk to me. But i am here if you need to talk….
You have no idea how hard I have tried to fix my issues, but Because so much is constantly weighing on me, it seems almost impossible at this point. Idk too much optimism irritates me, and it seems that’s all you give. Also, I want you to know this made me cry.
Okay. Oh, and I’ll never betray your trust. Im not like that.Thank you. I try not to push my issues onto other people, but I feel like with you I can without worrying that it will be too much. Sometimes when I text you I just want to talk. I don’t always have things to vent nor do I absolutely have to talk to you but I do enjoy just talking to some of my friends. It use to be like that for me, I use to drown in all of my sorrows, but after that didn’t work I tried to just step back from all of them and decide which ones were the most important to take care of first. DO NOT try to take care of them all at once, it will just pull you deeper our into your pain. Yeah sometimes I can be too full of optimism..it’s one of the ways I deal with my own issues. I remember that if I am not dead, then things can get better. I am sorry I made you cry…that is one of the reasons I try to keep my thoughts to myself. I believe you, and I won’t betray your trust either, nor will I leave you. Ever.
More time then I not, I just dont feel like talking. To anyone. Ya know? its not just you.
Then that begs the question, should I not try to talk to you unless I really need to let something off of my chest?
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quit breaking my heart…
You are a fantastic guy. You’ve been through so much, but you haven’t let it beat you. You are strong and good and pure, no matter what anyone has done or told you. You are genuine, and good, and maybe right now just isn’t the time for you to be in love. Maybe you haven’t…
Thank you Karissa. It is true I haven’t let it beat me, but it doesn’t mean I survived un-scathed. I try my best to be strong, and usually I suceed but even I have my moments where my insecurities weight heavily upon my heart and my shoulders. I always mean what I say unless I am pushing someone away to protect myself. Maybe you are right, maybe right now isn’t the time to be in love, but I am a patient person. I will wait for the girl that I want more than I have ever wanted another girl, for as long as it takes for her to be ready to be in love again. Promise you won’t forget about me? You are seriously like the only person I would hate to lose… At times I am happy and at others it is like I lose interest in alot of things. I just need someone to talk to about anything I dont care what about. I am not trying to break your heart I promise :/. Will you let me help you through your issues and emotions, if I promise not to judge you? It is impossible for me to forget about you. Period. I’m not sure if my life has any meaning at this point though.. no matter what I do or how nice I am to people, they always leave. My trust is always betrayed, yet I keep giving it out. I think I might be as broken as you, just in different ways, I just accept my issues and try fixing them.
I promise I will never, ever, EVER, forget you. I just… I will be here for you, if you ever need to vent. I mean it. If you feel low or whatever, just text it to me. Most of the time you say “Hi.” Or whatever and I dont think you seriously need to talk to me. But i am here if you need to talk….
You have no idea how hard I have tried to fix my issues, but Because so much is constantly weighing on me, it seems almost impossible at this point. Idk too much optimism irritates me, and it seems that’s all you give. Also, I want you to know this made me cry.
Okay. Oh, and I’ll never betray your trust. Im not like that.
Thank you. I try not to push my issues onto other people, but I feel like with you I can without worrying that it will be too much. Sometimes when I text you I just want to talk. I don’t always have things to vent nor do I absolutely have to talk to you but I do enjoy just talking to some of my friends. It use to be like that for me, I use to drown in all of my sorrows, but after that didn’t work I tried to just step back from all of them and decide which ones were the most important to take care of first. DO NOT try to take care of them all at once, it will just pull you deeper our into your pain. Yeah sometimes I can be too full of optimism..it’s one of the ways I deal with my own issues. I remember that if I am not dead, then things can get better. I am sorry I made you cry…that is one of the reasons I try to keep my thoughts to myself. I believe you, and I won’t betray your trust either, nor will I leave you. Ever.
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quit breaking my heart…
You are a fantastic guy. You’ve been through so much, but you haven’t let it beat you. You are strong and good and pure, no matter what anyone has done or told you. You are genuine, and good, and maybe right now just isn’t the time for you to be in love. Maybe you haven’t…
Thank you Karissa. It is true I haven’t let it beat me, but it doesn’t mean I survived un-scathed. I try my best to be strong, and usually I suceed but even I have my moments where my insecurities weight heavily upon my heart and my shoulders. I always mean what I say unless I am pushing someone away to protect myself. Maybe you are right, maybe right now isn’t the time to be in love, but I am a patient person. I will wait for the girl that I want more than I have ever wanted another girl, for as long as it takes for her to be ready to be in love again. Promise you won’t forget about me? You are seriously like the only person I would hate to lose… At times I am happy and at others it is like I lose interest in alot of things. I just need someone to talk to about anything I dont care what about. I am not trying to break your heart I promise :/. Will you let me help you through your issues and emotions, if I promise not to judge you? It is impossible for me to forget about you. Period. I’m not sure if my life has any meaning at this point though.. no matter what I do or how nice I am to people, they always leave. My trust is always betrayed, yet I keep giving it out. I think I might be as broken as you, just in different ways, I just accept my issues and try fixing them.
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if your unsure if they love you back
I don’t. Not yet, but that doesn’t mean I won’t. I just don’t love easily. Takes me a long time….
Well we have time..
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and it’s awful. I feel like I am wandering around with no direction. I know I’m young and I shouldn’t be so…depressed and upset, but I am. I am alone, completely. I don’t have many friends, I’m not the kinda girl guys want, and idk. I feel useless and worthless. My best friend told me the other…
Sometimes having a few close friends is better than having alot of friends who don’t truly care. You know not all people think as your friend does. Everyone has different tastes in girls. You are a smart, attractive girl albeit lost and very sad. I already told you if you need help just talk to me I am here for you.
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